Hold the Wheel

So a couple days ago, I was walking this dog at the humane society and the song "Drive" by Incubus came on my ipod. I have loved this song ever since some guys in my grade school class played it at our 8th grade talent show, but I have never really stopped to consider what it might be about. I believe that songs hold special meanings for each of us, and there are a million different acceptable interpretations of any given song lyrics. But in light of where I am in my life right now (someplace super uncertain and relatively scary), I really connected to this song. I looked down at the dog and I was like, "Dude. You have got to hear this song." The dog was not half as impressed as I felt she should be. 


"Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much I let the fear
Take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before
And it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before
And it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around
But lately I'm beginning to find that
When I drive myself my light is found

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there

Would you choose water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there"
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Beautiful, mellow 90's song. 


I am so excited at the thought that no matter how uncertain my career path is right now, no matter how scary it is for me to be single for a while, no matter where I may end up tomorrow...I can be the one in control of my life. And don't get me wrong, because there are a lot of things I can't control. For example, I can't control how my family is going to react to me feeling that it just may be my passion to ship off to Africa. ;) I can't control who I run into by chance, and I can't control whether or not the internships I apply to select me. BUT, I CAN control how I react to my grandma's worrying and my mom's hesitancy. I CAN control how much I push myself to join clubs, to go out even when I feel like being a loner, to smile...to keep fighting even if internships don't prove promising initially. It's my attitude that is going to make all the difference. 


So to everyone out there who feels like her life is out of her hands, don't fool yourself. It's simply not. I want to challenge you to "hold the wheel and drive" and embrace whatever tomorrow brings with "open arms and open eyes." It's gonna be SO worth it :) Promise. I'll even drink to it (as long as you drink with me). It's gonna have to be sparkling grape juice tho, cause I just gave blood today. Safety first! HA


Margaret